How Did This Happen?

I'm disgusted with myself. I've officially becoming a yo-yo dieter and a woman who struggles with her weight. I know that. I know what I've done wrong, and I know what I need to do to fix it. It's just the doing that is getting me stuck...

When I look in the mirror, I don't see an overweight woman, but even when I was at my lowest weight, I didn't see a thin person. I see it in pictures, and the way my clothes fit, and the way my body feels. I'm disgusted.

We have a little trip coming up soon, and I'm in a total panic that there will be about nine cameras within reach of the six people we'll be hanging out with. I really need to use that time away to resolve to getting back on track -- not dieting -- but back on track to being healthier. Let's face it: I'm not getting any younger!